"Your story sad to tell,
A teenage ne'er do well,
Most mixed up non-delinquent on the block!
You future's so unclear now,
What's left of your career now?
Can't even get a trade in on your smock!
Beauty school dropout,
No graduation day for you.
Beauty school dropout.
Missed your midterms and flunked shampoo!"
You all know that I started cosmetology school at Paul Mitchell back in September, and I have loved every single minute of it. There were some stressful days, but school wouldn't be school without those stressful days. The past couple of weeks on my way home from school, I would call my parents crying, and talking to them about my struggles with school. My last week of CORE, I came home every night crying to Trevor about school. It was so hard, so fast paced, and I just couldn't keep up. I was also stressed out about passing my practical exams and written exam. I just wasn't sure if continuing beauty school was the right decision for me.
After a couple of long talks with Trevor and my parents, and I even prayed about it. I have chose to put beauty school on hold. This was not an easy decision at all, and I've gotten a lot of negative comments about my decision. That's just it though, it's my decision and no one elses. I'm proud of myself for even trying school. The best part about the beauty industry, is that I have the opportunity to go back when I'm ready and pick up right where I left off.
So when I got to school on Wednesday, I wasn't quite sure how to go about telling my advisor that I wanted to drop out of school. She came back and got me from class and took me back to her office so we could talk about it. As soon as she shut the door, I broke down crying. I told her I wanted to drop out of school, and I reassured her it didn't have anything to do with anyone at the school, I just need to do what's best for me and my little family right now. It'll help us out financially, by saving some money in some areas of our budget and my little family really needs me at home right now. I told her I feel so embarrassed and I feel like such a failure, for dropping out. She looked at me and said, "You are not a failure, and you should not feel embarrassed. There are a ton of girls who drop out, but the best part about this industry, is you can come back when you are ready. I would rather have you drop out now, instead of continuing and not be mentally here at school. You will always be a student of mine. Once a Paul Mitchell student, always a Paul Mitchell student. If you ever need anyone to talk to, you can always email me or come in to see me, my door is always open for you." My advisor is the sweetest lady and I can't thank her enough for being so supportive of my decision.
So when I got to school on Wednesday, I wasn't quite sure how to go about telling my advisor that I wanted to drop out of school. She came back and got me from class and took me back to her office so we could talk about it. As soon as she shut the door, I broke down crying. I told her I wanted to drop out of school, and I reassured her it didn't have anything to do with anyone at the school, I just need to do what's best for me and my little family right now. It'll help us out financially, by saving some money in some areas of our budget and my little family really needs me at home right now. I told her I feel so embarrassed and I feel like such a failure, for dropping out. She looked at me and said, "You are not a failure, and you should not feel embarrassed. There are a ton of girls who drop out, but the best part about this industry, is you can come back when you are ready. I would rather have you drop out now, instead of continuing and not be mentally here at school. You will always be a student of mine. Once a Paul Mitchell student, always a Paul Mitchell student. If you ever need anyone to talk to, you can always email me or come in to see me, my door is always open for you." My advisor is the sweetest lady and I can't thank her enough for being so supportive of my decision.
Trevor has been very supportive with my decision about school and although it took him awhile in the beginning to be supportive about me going to school, he never gave up on me. He even came in to be my model for one of my practical exams. After 3 years of marriage, he finally got his very first haircut from me. I broke down in the middle of my exam crying, I was embarrassed, but it's because I thought I messed up and was so stressed out. Trevor took my hand, told me to breathe, told me I was doing a great job and to keep going. We've definitely had our ups and downs in our marriage, but he's the most supportive best friend I've ever had.
My mother in law was the first person I told about me wanting to go to beauty school. She has been supportive from the very beginning. She was pretty sad when I told her I was dropping out of school, but she also understood why I was dropping out. We don't always get along and butt heads from time to time, but I really do appreciate her support and for helping out with Bentley while I was at school.
I never said goodbye to my class, because I didn't know what they were going to think of me if I told them I was dropping out. A couple girls asked me where I was going, and I just said personal reasons. I am so grateful for all of the girls in my class though! I've gotten some pretty amazing friendships out of my class and even though we all didn't know each other from the beginning, we're all pretty close now. I will cherish my friendship with these girls forever. I want them to know how much I love them and will be cheering them on until they graduate. I can't wait to come in and be a client for them!
I don't even know where to start when it comes to Emma. She has become one of my best friends and was my biggest motivator in class. My in laws have been neighbors with her family for 13 years, and we never knew each other until we started school. Her family has welcomed me with open arms and treats me like one of their own. Emma and I have had so many good, fun, crazy times together! I'm seriously so sad that I won't be finishing school with her, but I know she's going to do awesome and I'm still going to be her #1 cheerleader. I love you Emma and I'm so glad we've become such good friends. I'll always be here for you and I'm just two doors down if you ever need anything.
Even though this week has been rough for me, I know I will have the opportunity to go back and finish school when I'm ready. Those of you who have supported me through my journey at school, I just want to say thank you, you have no idea how much the support means to me. For now, I'm going to enjoy being back at home with my boy and wait for the next door to open on whatever journey the big man upstairs has planned for me.
Until next time,
Xoxo
Emi
